It was only a matter of time

Well we made it to Scotland, the big wait is over, the adrenaline from travel and all things being new is starting to fade and life is becoming normal and routine all too quickly. It was only a matter of time until reality set in and feelings of loneliness and sadness began to hit. I think it came with Derek starting school as I no longer have him by my side to keep me company and distracted every day. At first, I kept myself busy setting up our new home and doing little things to get settled, but now as the house is feeling more comfortable and Derek is off at class most days and I don't have internet at home to keep caught up with my friends back home, the feelings are hitting harder than ever. I feel like I could break down any moment of any day. I miss home, I miss Vancouver, I miss my friends and my family and I long for the community we had when we lived in Canada. We really had something special and I miss that. Of course we all must move on but I just really appreciate that time in my life and the comfort and security that it brought me. Amazing memories that will always be with me and friendships that will never fade. I know that we will make friends here and it is only a mater of time until that happens, but I wonder if we will ever truly have what we had at Regent. I am obviously feeling rather nostalgic at the moment in my state of sadness, but that's alright. Point being is that I miss you all and hope to have some visitors soon (hint, hint). As we were moving out of Vancouver I found an old journal that I had started just as we moved there and began to read the only 2-3 pages I wrote in and I read that I was feeling the exact same sad and lonely feelings in the initial stages of living there. It kind of made me laugh to look back as I couldn't imagine that I had ever felt that way while living there. But I do know that it took until around December to start to find a real community and to discover what I really needed and desired for myself in a new place. So now the cycle starts over again in a new city, a new country.

What a depressing blog, sorry about that. Here is fun memory from Vancouver, the early days.